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Right here waiting (by richard marx)...

ocean's apart day after day
And i slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If i see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That i thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, i taste the tears
But i can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if i'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Repeat chorus
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I know that i do really care how my actions would result in things, but what's damn bad about it? I dun want to hurt people with my words/ actions and i would tend to look back at them often.
Why like this? I'm not pointing fingers but the cause of it is very simple, because of people around me. My rules of life: Always try not to disturb anyone and speak what i feel. However, people around me tends to criticize whatever small errors i've made, not in a friendly tone but a sarcastic one. Its not that i do not want to change, but i tend not to discover it until something happens. I'm willing to change if there's seriously some problem, but do let me know in a relaxed and nice manner. I'm willing to listen.
I've always tried to treat my friends as well as i can do, yet most i've received are negative comments, which i feel i do not deserve them. Maybe i tend to talk too much and nonsense stuff, lame or being repetitive, but i do that cos i treat u all as my friends. YES, i'm a human being and have got feelings. These comments seriously hit me hard and i do no longer trust anyone. I feel so insulted.
Not that i'm being whinny or like to complain, but i just want to write what i feel in the bottom of my heart.
Thanks to those who treat me as a true friend and be reassured that i'll treasure these friendships. Yup, these are what i truly want to say.