My inner self

I've been relatively free even though I'm working nowadays. Had been thinking too much, too much wierd stuff and even able to write essays. However, all these thoughts made me so disheartened, lost and even angry. I've decided to put down my thoughts in words; during work mind you.
"What kind of person really am I?" After much analysis and probing, I believe that i'm a rather social person. A person whom cannot live without friends. No matter where I go, there is just this need to have people i know around me. Its not about me lacking the ability to socialise, but to be precise, a need to have people whom i can trust and depend on. To me, a problem is that i tend to trust people too easily and too much, thus getting hurt easily. The greater the trust, the greater the disappointment.
Another conclusion i came up with was that I cannot stand and surely, work with sly and cunning people. They do not show what they are actually thinking and might do a different act. They would not give you truthful answers when you ask them. Even if they do so, there will be doubts over their answers. Thus, I'm quite fortunate to have groups of close friends/buddies, friends whom i can really depend on. We were able to share anything under the stars, even secrets. Trust and Commitment are the two words I can think of, that would describe these special bonds. They stand by you whenever you face difficulties, cheer you up when you are down, feel happy for you when you are in joy.
Some thoughts really made me wonder and ponder much about them; "WHY?" Why are some people just so insensitive to things around them? Although some actions that they did meant no harm, but they might actually cause harm to others unknowingly. Did they ever think back and wonder how the others would feel? There is always a action-reaction to everything, just depends on how big or small are the impacts. I realised how cruel this world is.
Disappointment tiredness are my feelings towards such small conflicts and my daily life. They caused me much unhappiness and sadness; almost being depressed. PLEASE, LET ME GO. On the other hand, I'm thankful to my close friends around me; they cheered me up, gave me valuable advices.