help

I'm so suffocated, like a caged bird. I want my freedom back, not mentioning sleep. Its too much for me to handle, please save me. Do i really have to carry on like this in the remaining 1 year and 6 months?
Well, 4 weeks of BSLC have passed, with about more than half the course uncompleted. No longer motivated to push on. I also got into a state of "what the **** am i doing". I got so lost and seriously screwing things up. Luckily i have this group of platoon mates, section mates, there for me. Oh yes, my very nice buddy as well.
All i wish to do now, is to actually go for a long holiday/ break (which i cannot have). If not, chill out sessions with friends will be fine.
Haven't been blogging and wouldn't be blogging much cos i've been too busy and being too lazy. What more could you expect from some NSF guy who books out on saturdays and book in on sundays, or even earlier.
From here, i'll sign out. Cya.